Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
I saw my grades for my last two assignments. Both As! Yay! Haha. I found out I work best under pressure. My mom calls it cramming. Haha. I'm pretty happy for the most part. We'll see how I do for the next one!
Today the word of the day for me was Micro Biology. Wait, that's two words or is it one? I don't know. Well whatever it is, it's what I've been hearing for the past day and a half. I have three friends, one is studying for an upcoming test, one had a test today, and the other one started the class today. I really hope I don't have to take that class in the future. That's why I'm not doing Nursing! Bwahaha. =p
I want to take a (3rd) try at vlogs again, but I can never get the hang of it. What I'm saying in my head doesn't really come out right on camera. We'll see. Ok bye.
Friday, September 19, 2008
There are days when I envy those kids that just have to deal with school. Home work, and tests are all they have to stress about. I should say even including stupid-immature-unnecessary drama. Haha. Yeah I say that because I think it really is. Instead of worrying who talks about me behind my back and what not, I'm here stressing where I am going to get the money to pay on time for this and that. So I guess most days I'm glad I went with the work and bills route. At least I know what to expect after school. I can say it also has some what made me more of a responsible person.
I'm really grateful my mom is helping me pay for school right now. I've been saying for awhile now that I want to do the whole school thing again, and make myself stick to it this time. But I just couldn't do it on my own right now. Once my bills get down to a reasonable balance, I'll have my mom stop paying, and take over. Sigh... I love my mom. I think the best gift you can give your parents is finishing school. All I want is for them to be proud of me and my brother one day.
So for the next couple of years it'll be work, school and bills. The order of those will change day by day though. Haha. And the rest would be a hmm... should I say, privilege? I have to deal with these three things before I can do anything else. I'm pretty sure I can do this...
Thursday, September 18, 2008
No more dropping out again. No more giving up. I had too many chances already. I wasted so much time and money. This time I'm going to make it work. I will follow through. I will quit being lazy. I'm more motivated than ever.
I just want to thank you if I haven't before. I want to thank you for your words. Telling me it's alright if I don't really know what I want right now. Telling me that I can do this. Even though you know I am so hard headed, you are still persistent in encouraging me. I thank you so much. Even for those times when I feel you aren't there for me, I just reflect and think about all the things you tell me. I know I'm an ass at times, but I never really meant to say those things to you. I was mad. My sorrys may mean nothing, but I am. I'm sorry. I just want to say, I still need and want your encouragement.